When Things are not the Way We Expect

I Thought I Had It In The Bag

I thought I had it right in the bag, but I was wrong... Completely wrong. Yes, I worked hard last year to reach my targets despite giving birth and taking a 2-month maternity leave. I ended 2012 with a big bang, exceeding my targets with double digit figures. But life is not at all what we expect. Life can be surprisingly frustrating. I didn't get what I hoped for and it struck me really hard. I felt angry and was devastated even to the point of looking for another job.

Harboring Grudges

I realized that promotions inspire people to do better and strive hard to excel. But on the other side of the coin, the idea of you not getting what you deserve can actually stab you right in your heart. You harbor hate to the company, keeps grudges to your bosses, you sit still and just be silent, act as if you don't care at all. But the truth hurts! Your efforts are useless, your drive is gone, your positivity and enthusiasm are like thin air that completely vanished in just one snap of a finger.

Humbling Realizations

Despite the excruciating agony of feeling of unappreciated, I learned to pick myself up and move on. Chanelling your emotions is not as easy as 1,2,3. Mind you, it takes a lot of will and determination to focus on the present and bury the past. It takes time to humbly accept that there are circumstances in life you tend not to understand. Instances, where the rationale behind every event is beyond the scope of our human knowledge. I learned to reflect, pray hard and trust God that no matter what happens, His reason and His purpose is always perfect in His time. I am emotionally wounded, but I know a Healer who will soothe away my pain.